almost 7 years after my son died.. and it feels like yesterday

Christina - posted on 01/22/2010 ( 3 moms have responded )




So... Feb 27 is coming up so fast.. and it will be my sons birthday... he would be 7 this year. It seems like its been so long since I had held him and touched him.. I am so depressed and feel alone. Even after 7 years his birthday absolutely kills me inside. Last year I had included my 4 year old in doing something special for his brothers bday. We went to the park and fed the ducks and fish, and talked about how much we missed him. and wished he was there, and other things.. it was nice to have my other son involved.. i think this year we will do something like that again.
but right now i feel empty inside.. i feel like im alone and that im lost... i still have a WHOLE month before his bday gets here.. and i know that everyday its harder and harder... anyone have the same problems even though its been many years since their baby had passed??


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Christie - posted on 03/24/2013




I am so sorry for your loss and I too lost my first son Micah our angel's share the same birthday ♥ he would have been 9 this year......... you are so NOT alone!!! I too start feel that heavy feeling in my heart about a month before his birthday dreading it, knowing the pain will become unbearable!!! I have tried several different ideas, none that have worked yet. I have two girls and have included them in and that has brought the most comfort♥ I pray a lot and try to remind myself of all the blessing I have and take comfort in knowing that when i die we will be together again~ If you ever need anything message me i know their birthday has passed and normal is setting back in until something reminds us and there birthday comes back around....... hang in there that's all we can do and enjoy every second with the children we do get to hold,hug,kiss, laugh and love on:)

Melanie - posted on 10/15/2010




Hi Christina, I too have an angel baby who would have turned seven last month. My situation is that more complicated because my angel baby has a surviving twin brother so each birthday is a day of mixed emotions. I feel excited and happy for the little guy I still have but feel a great deal of sorrow for the little life lost. I too feel a great deal of loneliness and despair even though it has been almost seven years since my little boy passed away. He was 3 1/2 months when he grew his angel wings. Please know that you are not alone and if you ever want to talk I am here. I think these feelings we have will never go away and we simply need to find a way to work through these emotions and get through the bad times the best way we can. I will never forget my baby, I carry him around in my heart everything and I miss him dearly. Take care. x

Rebekah - posted on 08/01/2010




Christina, every year I think of my daughter and her birthday in heaven feels like a raw wound all over again. I don't think its unhealthy or abnormal to feel the way we do. We have lost a part of our heart and it will never fully recover. I think its nice that you include your son in remembering. My older son and my young daughter remember my Nikki on her bday , we have a cupcake and lite a candle and say a wish for her. It feels good. You are not alone, you have your son whose past in your heart and you have your son here on Earth with you and don't forget the many hundreds of us,your sisters in arms, your kindred spirits. Have a great week. *Hugs*

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