Introducing myself

Holly - posted on 01/27/2010 ( 9 moms have responded )

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Hello and welcome to my community. I suffer from Depression/Anxiety. I have suffered for about 4 years...I believed this actually started after my second child and slowly progressed to a full blown out disorder. I have also been diagnosed with conversion disorder..which a mental disorder of anxiety that manifests itself into physical symdromes that look and act like a stroke including lack of movement and control of certain parts of the body. This disorder is a lot hard to explain. If you have any questions about it I would be happy to answer them. I have two children. My son is 6 years old and suffers from ADHD/ADD and possbile Aspergers symdrome. I have a 3 year old daughter who is wonderful happy ball of energy. Anyway, I am really looking forward to meeting others trying to cope with who you are and still parent children.

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Selina - posted on 04/23/2011

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You are a strong person and you have really encouraged me reading your post as i too have similer struggles and i know what it feels like to have ppl judge you and misunderstand you and call you unfit it hurts and it feels like your alone like nobody cares nor will support you in getting the help you need,my husband is also unsuportive and judges me too,i have days were i feel i cant do it anymore i wanna quit my job feel like a bad mother and cant handle it,ect... But i do try my hardest everyday to fight this and do everything for my children they are my # 1 priority.I am currently 25 weeks pregnant with my 2nd child and have been much worse since pregnancy I need help before this baby is born,mainly for the sake of my children before this gets worse :( I myself suffer from major depression and anxiety disorders were i sometimes cannot function or have any motivation to do anything,i was on medication for my issue but wnet off then due to pregnancy and wonders if i made the right decision. But anyways sorry for venting alot,i just wanted to let you know reading your post hasmade me feel better and wanted you to know im here to talk if you need someone,because having someone there even if its only on the computer can be the biggest thing ever :)

Selina - posted on 02/23/2011

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I am soo happy i found a group like this on here as i too suffer from Depression and Anxiety disorder and sometimes i feel its controlling my life and my mind how i feel and think!!!
I have a 2 1/2 year old daughter and am currently 16 weeks pregnant with my second child and since pregnancy my disorder has been 10 times worse.
I was on medication for my problem but have gone off them due to being pregnant and not wanting to take the risk although my doctor had told me my medication is complety safe for the baby!
I also work a full time job at a fast food restaurant and tell me about stress and panick attacks its sooo overwhelming to me.
But my daughter gets me through everyday because shes my angel and im my eyes she is my antidepressant ♥

Erika - posted on 08/30/2010

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And to Ashley - stepmoms are moms too - when you live with a child you deal with the same issues, so there is no reason for you to worry about that :)

Erika - posted on 08/30/2010

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I have always dealt with depression since my teenage years, but my daughter was born in Nov 2006 and at 2 months old had heart surgery and extreme colic for 6 months. After that we found out why - she was diagnosed with Williams Syndrome, which carries a lot of health problems and the heart/colic problems as well. Since she was born my anxiety level has risen to the point where it's taken over completely. I have no energy, only go out for groceries, have constant restlessness and anxiousness, trouble sleeping, and just in the past 8 months or so have started having nausea at least 1-2 times per week where it lasts the whole day. The past 2 months it has really gotten worse, my hubby lost his job and we had to move to a cheaper place, and lost our health insurance from his job. My daughter is healthy and happy at almost 4 years old, but I cannot seem to get over my anxiety of her having problems! She sleeps through the night unless she is sick, which isn't very often. But when I hear even the slightest sound on the baby monitor it sends a shock wave through my whole body and I tense up and get sick to my stomach. I am at the point where I don't know what to do - any kind of noise sends a jolt through me and I jump - even like a car door outside. I have been on Effexor XR since Abby was born to help with the depression, and I take Ativan for my anxiety, but I am sooo afraid of getting addicted to those stupid pills that I will forgo them and suffer most of the time. I also suffer from OCD, and of course with all the above, you can imagine that it has become MUCH worse. So Holly I totally understand about the child having Aspergers and what it can do to your life. My biggest thing is that no one I know has been through anything like what we have, and most people just don't understand - they have never spent 6 months getting 2 hours of rest a night because your child screams 15 hours a day and they think that we were exaggerating the situation. Funnily enough, at EXACTLY 6 months old it was like the curtain was opened and she started sleeping through the night, and she has been the greatest sleeper and never cries! But the anxiety just hasn't left me and I am beginning to wonder if I will ever feel normal again :( If you are interested in learning more about Williams Syndrome, feel free to ask me :) They are the coolest children with the greatest personalities! I would love some input or advice on how to deal with the anxiety and stress if anyone has ideas :) Thanks for listening!

Ashley - posted on 08/22/2010

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Well I don't know you feel about step mom's with depression but I am here. I am raising my fiance's kids more than he is sometimes and it is hard to do with my depression. There are times that I dont even want to be around them. they are 2, 3, and 5. He just doesn't understand why I am that way. I love them to death but my depression makes it so hard to always be there for them. I know I am technically not a mom but I take care of them more than their own mother does (she is two time zones away from us now and is not coming back). comments on how you feel please.

Heather - posted on 08/18/2010

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Cherelle, you are not alone and you are doing the right thing by waiting to breakdown. I commend you for the ability to do so. You are a good mother. It is difficult for people who have never delt with depression and anxiety to understand it. A doctor once told me that the brain is just like any other organ. If your liver no longer function properly then you would get treatment to fix it. If you broke a bone, then you would get treatment to fix it and then rehab to make it stronger. The brain is no differant. Your brain, like mine, is no longer producing the right amount of chemicals. It is not your fault.

Cherelle - posted on 08/17/2010

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i got post natal depression and without getting help it has turned into full blown depression i cant sleep coz of the vivid nightmares im having and i hardly eat because i just cant face it all the time during the day im full of energy and i do everything my son needs but its when he goes to sleep and im on my own i just break down ive tried to talk to people about it and then find out they are actually critising me. saying i need to grow up and that im not ready to be a mum but its far from the truth i do my best for my son and if it means i go without then i go without. am i being selfish and childish in waiting to break down when hes tucked up in bed or do they want me to do it in front of him. i made a decision and ive been getting proffesional help i really am doing everything i can for him. but every1 still puts me down. i really need support to get thru this and i hope this page can help me with that

sorry if ive rambled on its just something i needed to get off my chest i hope we can all be there for each other i certainly know how hard it is having a baby with depression x

Heather - posted on 08/04/2010

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You sound a lot like me. I have been diagnosed with depression, social anxiety, ocd, ect. I have a 5 year old son who may have aspergers syndrome and a 3 year old son who is also a ball of energy. My husband is trying to understand it all, but I can tell that at times he thinks that I am fake my symptoms to get out of doing things with them.

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