Mums who've lost a child to suicide

My son Ben comitted suicide on the 26th March 08,aged 18.The events of that morning are still in my mind all the time,my heart was crushed and the pain is still as bad today as it was then.i cant talk to anyone about it,but i find writing to other people in similar circumstances is easier.there needs to be more awareness made about depression and the dangers of not talking or getting help.Parents need to look for signs of depression in their children.There are just to many unnecessary and senseless deaths