Constantly called out on bad attitude

Mona - posted on 03/15/2015 ( 1 mom has responded )

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So I'm struggling like crazy!! I'm a mother to 3 children and step mother to 2, divorced and now remarried with husbands 2 ex baby mamas and my ex psycho, trying to have a successful life with blended family and it's not happening! I'm feeling like a complete failure because I had no business having children or marriage in first place. I came from a drug addicted household with a biracial family in an error it wasn't excepted and had a very miserable childhood which made me a very angry person, to get out of my family situation I moved in at 15 with a guy that was totally not my type just to make a home for myself, I was 15 so I didn't know any better and parents loved it because they borrowed money from him, at age 18 I grew up realized that I'm not in a healthy situation because I had used this guy even tho I loved him as a friend, I explained this to him and he attached himself not allowing me to leave until I was 32, 3 kids later and I pretty much ran away and spent next 5 years in huge divorce and custody battle, no remarried to guy with 2 kids,m2 different moms, one has little to do with her son out of convenience since he's always in trouble, the other a money hungry, stuck in my business and help to destroy any possibility of relationship my now husbands family. Now I feel very overwhelmed because I'm working for 5 kids a husband and I do a lot and I'm willing to do all those things, but what's going on is I'm spreading myself thin, and when im asking for favors back or for respect for what I have done including appreciation that doesn't happen which I understand that's not always going to happen but when I'm putting myself out there and not getting anything back in return I then don't want to do those things any longer. If I voice my opinion and it's not of happiness an fun I'm called having an attitude. I due have to admit with all that I've had happen I don't always feel happy go lucky, and I'm very short tempered. I'm literally being told if I can't fix my attitude then he's done. Mind you his mother, brother, father, son, both exes and strangers have started with me for all those situations I have responded negatively a handful of times because I have reached my breaking point. In desperate need of break from my life, and I'm very upset that I should have got divorced first time and not rushed into anything in order that I could heal my mind. This is the very shorten version. And I'm told I need to seek help.
Stay at home home mom with very limited options to even move on!!

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Susannahchatzi - posted on 03/28/2015

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Hi. I read your post my heart goes out to you. All what you have experienced has made you a wise and strong minded person and why should you feel any less, you survived so far being strong! What are you able to do to change this situation you are in right now? Why do you need to seek help? It takes two to make a marriage work. You are upset and have right to feel and be so! You deserve respect don't sell yourself short of that. hugs xxxx

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