First miscarriage almost 3 weeks ago! Still in Deep Grief!

Kerrie Kathleen - posted on 03/07/2013 ( 3 moms have responded )

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My husband & I were married in 2010, we have a blended family with teenagers, and our oldest child is 18. We were 19 & 20 when we had our oldest, & gave him up for an open adoption. My husband had to sign off on his rights to see our son at birth, the private adoption attorney made him do that. So he has never been able to meet his son. On The anniversary of our engagement in December of 2012~ 2 months ago, we found out we were pregnant! We were completely overjoyed and because it was the anniversary of our engagement our joy was even greater! I saw our baby's heart beat on an early ultrasound at 6 weeks along, baby's heart was 126 beats per minute. I was so happy and at peace. Then to my huge shock on Tuesday February 12th I started spotting brown blood. I immediately went into the hospital & had my husband meet me. The doctor said our baby stopped growing at 6 weeks! I was 10 weeks and 4 days along. I went into full blown labor on Friday Feb. 15. It was more painful than giving birth to our 9lb 5 oz. Son and my 8lb 12 oz. Daughter! But I chose to do it naturally. I didn't want them tearing my baby apart. The D&C is the same as an abortion according to my doctor. I knew emotionally I couldn't do that. I'm glad I chose natural miscarriage too because I won't have scarring from a D&C and will be able to try again. We plan on trying again. I have to admit I' m a little scared.We have a very strong faith in God and honestly I know I couldn't have made it through the last 3 weeks without Jesus in our life. But, I am human and this has been the most painful thing! I really miss my baby. We wanted our baby with all our hearts. I don't wish this experience on anyone! But after all we've been through we truly didn't deserve this.And if anyone is wondering, Yes I was on prenatal vitamins, never changed the cat box, only drank decafenated coffee, ate extremely healthy, walked, and stopped using beauty products with retinol, salycilac acid and only used healthy products. I did everything right.

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Mary Mehgan - posted on 03/07/2013

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I just started attending college full time in January. I am already a full-time mommy of my beautiful son, Christian, 2 years old. Right before I started school I suffered an ectopic pregnancy and eventually lost the baby. I was almost three months. This isn't the first time I've lost a baby. Before Christian came along I had seven miscarriages and cervcal cancer. My son is certainly my miracle baby. I just joined this site because I'm getting ready to right an argumentative essay about being a stay at home mom is a job, and saw your post first. I just wanted to tell you, you are not alone. It is so dfficult and heart breaking. The pain is emense, and I'm not talking physically. But I can tell you it will get better. It takes time and it is different for everyone. But you're not alone. I was and it was hard, EVERY TIME!! I just want to say I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. Time heals most all wounds. I'm here if you ever want to talk.

Pritika - posted on 03/07/2013

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So sorry to hear about your loss! It is so nice that you have such strong faith and it seems that your husband is a strong support for you during this time. This will certainly help you in your grieving. Sending you love and prayers for strength for this tough time.

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Kerrie Kathleen - posted on 03/19/2013

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Mary, I named our son whom we gave up for open adoption 18 years ago, Christian.

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