I just need help...

Mbudzowski2013 - posted on 10/06/2013 ( 1 mom has responded )

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Hello. I'm the mother of a beautiful 6 1/2 month old little boy. I should start this by saying I am a teenager. I had him when I was 18 and I am still finishing school on top of raising him. I love him to peices.i had lived with my boyfriend, his father for almost a year but we were getting into horrible fights. I've been struggling with depression, and anxiety my whole life and right now it's at its peak. I cry all the time. I feel like no one can stand me. At night my son won't sleep ever. Today marks the third day I've been up with about two hours I between. Last night I had the flu and being on my own I was desperate for him to sleep. I got really frustrated. I picked him up rougher then I would have, and I talked a bit meaner then I should have and I even laid him on the bed rougher then I meant to. I even was trying to rock him to sleep but I got a bit rough for a second with that so I took a step back. He was crying almost all night. I'm worries that my baby will hate me because I get so frustrated. During the day I'm a nurturing wonderful patient mother it's only at night that I start to get bad. IDE never hurt him. I know he's just a baby but I feel like a horrible mom.. I've struggled with not killing myself because I feel as though my son would be better off. I know that's not fair. I love him too much to leave. I just feel so awful about myself. I had a wonderful bond with my baby and I don't want it to leave.

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Malissa - posted on 10/07/2013

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Hi Meegan,
its not easy being a young mum of a young baby and feeling the way that you do. If I was you I should say when I was you some one said to me that the best thing I could do to be the best I could be for my beautiful little girl was to go and see a Dr and tell them how I was feeling. I did and they diagnosed me with Post Natal Depression and gave me some medication to help me cope. I now have 5 beautiful children and the beautiful girl I mentioned earlier has recently turned 18. Try not to beat yourself up for how you are feeling but please do get some help you deserve it and to enjoy your gorgeous bundle of joy and he deserves to have you in his life. on another note at 6and a half months he could be teething and his gums could be sore so try getting some teething gel from the chemist to rub alittle bit on his gums when he is unsettled. he could also have a bit of reflux which can be very uncomfortable for little ones and cause them to be very unsettled and cry all the time. when you go to the Dr take him with you and ask them to check him out. they also have some great remedies for reflux at the chemist. I hope that this helps you a little bit and please remember you are a beautiful young lady with a heart full of love your little Boy and he loves you xxx

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