
Jr_2002au - posted on 06/18/2012 ( 10 moms have responded )
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I just need to vent!
I don't know what to do anymore! 6 years ago I moved from QLD to SA after meeting my husband, I decided to stay & see how it goes. We have been happy, bought a house, got married 2 years ago & fell pregnant straight away with my beautiful baby girl who is now 16 months old.
Ever since I had my daughter things have been bad for me, I'm extremely home sick & feeling so depressed & guilty that my family are missing out on her! I have anxiety over small things & take my frustration out on my husband & find myself blaming him for everything!
All I think about everyday is going home & being close to my family & having their support (as my husbands family is no support at all) I have expressed my feelings to hubby & he has decided that we can move back to QLD to be closer to my family!
That's soooo great! We have had our house up for sale for 4 months now with NO interest at all! I'm sooooo desperate to move & it's getting harder everyday to be here & I find myself having thoughts of leaving my husband. I also find myself being very resentful towards him, I almost blame him that we can't move yet! ( I know its not his fault the house hasn't sold but I can't help it!)
I'm so frustrated with myself, my life, everything! I sometimes snap at my daughter for stupid little things & then burst into tears because I realise how horrible I have been to her!
I hate the person I have become, I used to be happy & relaxed!
I just don't feel right here, I need my family & I need to be home, is this selfish?
PLEASE HELP ME!
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Lisamarie - posted on 06/19/2012
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I agree, moving back is not going to make you feel instantly better. I have been a SAHM for a little over 5 years now, I live near all my family but still don't see them very often. I went through a depression stage for years and like you took it out on my husband. I went to see a counsellor a few months ago and honestly it has done wonders, I saw a man but you can request a woman if you would feel more comfortable.
I found that talking about how I felt gave him the opportunity to explain why I was feeling these things and exercises to use to control certain things. Just knowing why I was acting the way I was helped me enormously and now I honestly feel like a new woman. I am happy 99% of the time, compared to the 40% I was before, I feel confident and have started taking my youngest child to a mummy and children center where we can both socialize.
Good luck and I hope everything works out for you. :-)