C-Section: My Personal Experience... .. . Physical and Emotional.

User - posted on 03/21/2013 ( no moms have responded yet )




I didn't want a C-Section, but my mother had one when I got stuck in the birth canal during a 22 hour labor.

I carried my first son for 42 weeks. I desperately wanted to give birth 'normally' but at the 40 week mark, I had to start going to weekly ultrasounds to measure amniotic fluid. He grew very quickly after the 40th week, something I hadn't anticipated and suffered through 11 hours of induced labor. I only dilated 3 centimeters after having my water manually broken. My son was 'born' via C-Section at 9 pounds and 12 ounces with a 14 centimeter crown, he was 22 inches long.

The epidural was painful. The nurses were mean, saying that I was moving away from the needle that they were sticking into my spine, but I honestly didn't feel like I was moving at all. They kept telling me to hunch over forward, but at 42 weeks pregnant with a baby that size, I could barely move at all - let alone hunch over forward. At any rate I didn't feel any different after the epidural and I kept feeling 'contractions' that with all honesty felt exactly like when I thought my baby was kicking me. Had I been contracting and didn't know it? I have a retroverted uterus. I have to wonder if this had anything to do with it. Most of my labor pain was in my back.

I remember my first C-Section was so awful. I don't know if the medicine works the same on everyone but I was in more pain during the C-Section than I was in labor. I was told by the anesthesiologist that I was just afraid, and not in pain. Dentists tell me that, too. I am also agoraphobic. Maybe they are right but I could feel everything that they were doing to some degree. I finally understood what my mother meant by saying having kids was the worst thing that ever happened to her. She meant that she'd never been mauled by a city bus and mangled beyond repair, not that she regretted myself or my sister, god bless her.

My second C-section was a year later. It was scheduled because I might have suffered from "uterine rupture' had I attempted a birth so soon after a c-section. What they tell you is that the incision is in the same spot so it won't leave another scar. What they don't tell you is that they can't exactly use the same stitch or staple pattern, so there are twice as many dot marks flanking the scar. Something else they don't bother to mention is that the second C-section takes longer because they have to cut through the original scar tissue which is thick. (A 3rd C-Section can take up to 2 hours to cut through the scar tissue). Believe me, every moment counts.

My 2nd C-Section was worse in so many ways. Instead of an epidural, I had a spinal tap - which is supposed to be: 'better'... .. . Not for me. I reacted to the medicine in a very strange way. They had given me a sour drink to sip down entirely before administering the spinal tap to prevent me from feeling nausea. Once on the operating room table, I started gagging and I vomited the liquid that they gave me.

After a while, I felt like I couldn't breathe or move. It got worse and worse and felt unmistakably as though a 200 pound person was standing on my chest with very large boots on. I complained about it and was told that's 'normal'. I felt like the devil himself was crouched on me, I feared that C-sections were going against god's will and I was being punished and the devil was squatting down to take a dump on my insides after the baby was removed. I went insane from the pain, basically. Then I started feeling very very severe pain and was given "more medicine" when I was being put back together.

My youngest son is 1. I still have abdominal pain. There are things that happen during a C-Section, small things like - they SHOW you your baby. The show you and don't hand them to you, and your wrists are strapped down so you can't even touch them until you are sewn shut. It's terrible. I don't wish it on anyone.

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