my son was abused

Jodie - posted on 04/18/2015 ( no moms have responded yet )




I don't even know where to start! I had a son from a previous relationship he was about 2 & a half when I met a man him & my son got on really well in time we came a couple. After a year of our relationship things changed he came very controlling of me, if I went out with my friends I'd be interrogated of where I'd been who I was talking to etc it got to the poit where it wasn't worth the hassle to go out anymore but that wasn't enough it started where I would be accused of cheating with his brothers being called a dirty little stag & the violence would start. Id constantly be pessured into having sex with him all the time .then i fell pregnant & things really changed I noticed he was more controlling over both me & my son. He would go mad at my son over silly things. Looking back now I could tell he was really jealous of the relationship I had with my son. When I was about 5 months pregnant I caught him smacking my son I kicked out of the house & our relationship was over but I what my son told me ripped me apart. He'd been abusing my child my son told me of how he would tie him up & lock him in his room, he would sabotage over his mouth to stop him from crying. He would wee in his mouth & show him how to play with himself. I didn't report it to the police as I was petrofied they would take my children away from me & my son begged me not to anyone as he had been told that if he told anyone he would be taken away from me. I didn't tell anyone not even my family but I parents noticed something wasn't right & I told then what had happened. In time I had my daughter, I was so scared that someone would take my kids away from & I still am my dad said to allow him supervised contact then it wouldn't have to come out about what he had done to my son but he took me to court to have unsupervised access to her so I had to tell the courts what had happend. I had to report it to he police but the cps wouldn't prosecute as my son was at such a young age & didn't think he would cope with it all. I am so scared that he will be granted access to her. My son was at an age were he could talk & didn't say anything my daughter is 15months. everytime I look at my kids I feel like my heart is being ripped out iam so mad that I didn't know it was happening what sort of a mother does that make me! I just want all this pain to go away. My son wants to llove on but I don't know how to. I've been on anti-depressents & anxiety tablets to help with it all some days they work & they don't. I just don't know what to do

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