pre partum depression

Cynthia - posted on 05/26/2011 ( 2 moms have responded )




so everyone talks about how real postpartum depression is but my new theory is that pre partum (before baby is born) is just as real. and i am suffering from it. i am so depressed and i even think about doing stupid dangerous things to get this baby out of me. i hate my life right now and i cant take the pain any longer. this is my 2 baby and i don't get it i didn't hurt like this with my 1st. my back and hips are killing me to the point where i cry every night:( i saw scissors laying on the counter last night and i imagined myself cutting my belly to get the baby out. if i didn't have a baby in me i would kill myself just to get it over with. i have migraines almost every day and every time i tell a doctor they just say thats pregnancy for you. i want sum good drugs and a lot of sleep. i don't ever want to wake up! I've been to the er about my back and head aches and they just check on the baby and send me home. I think something is really wrong with me but i cant get any one to believe that. anyway ladies thanks for letting me vent and yeah its easy to exaggerate when your hurting so don't worry other then thinking about it, I'm not going to do anything stupid.


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Mrs. - posted on 05/26/2011




I was quite depressed before I had my baby too, I just wasn't aware of it. Afterward, I had severe PPD. I wish I had gotten help before the baby came to make a plan on how to deal with my depression with my doctor.

Please tell you OBGYN, they will be nothing but helpful. Do not be afraid of them thinking you are nuts, taking your child away or committing you. What you are experiencing is actually not uncommon. You won't need a lot of help to make things feel a bit more comfortable again. Again, just ask for the help, you will get it.

Migraines are not treated best in the ER. You need to speak to your OBGYN and/or GP to get a long-term plan in place to make you comfortable. You don't have to be in pain.

The images you are talking about, cutting the baby out, etc...these sound like classic PPD, obsessive compulsive anxiety thoughts. You are not a horrible mother or person because of these. I had similar issues after I had the baby, horrible images in my head that still crop up from time to time (my daughter is two!) I know, they are just part of my recovery.

As well, join the PPD group here. I know, you haven't had the baby yet, but what you are going through is the same thing.

Please talk to your regular docs and get a plan in place.

Louise - posted on 05/26/2011




Cynthia I understand how you feel with my last baby I had a split pelvis and the pain was unbelievable, by 4 months I was not walking any where because of the pain and I had a miserable time of it. I like you became very depressed and it was a sympathetic consultant that just said enough is enough and induced me early so that I could get my body back. It took a month after my c section to get my body back to walking comfortably again. It definitely cured me of wanting any more children that is for sure.

try and look at the pain in another way. Each day is one day closer to you holding your baby. Try and be positive and if things get to much stamp your feet at the hospital and demand that they do something to help you, Good luck.

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