Unappreciated and Empty

Vanessa - posted on 01/07/2015 ( 1 mom has responded )




Hi I've never really done this before but I don't know how much longer I can keep it inside. I'm 22 years old and I married my highschool sweetheart. We broke up for like three months before getting married because he left and dated someone else. He was my first in everything and I to him. With this new girl he slept with her and it broke my whole heart. Ever since I have learned to forgive him but I can't forget it. We got married he had changed we were happy. Now almost two years into the marriage I feel so unhappy. I work full time go to school cook clean wash his clothes wake up early in the morning to take him to work and I even pay for mostly everything because he says he doesn't make as much as me but he spends it on scratchers. I sometimes hope he would say thank you or help me out but all he does is tear me down. He doesn't appreciate anything I do. Idk if it's all in my mind but when he gets upset and says mean things I just start to cry. I'm so lost because I do love him but I miss the way he was when he was my boyfriend. He doesn't kiss me as much or even wants to be intimate as much either. I know we are young and maybe that's why he is how he is but I can't help feeling beneath him like I'm nothing to him and it creates this emptiness inside me. I use to be so confident and radiant and happy and now I feel ugly and scared. I feel like damaged goods and I don't know if it's my fault that he doesn't look at me the same way. I don't know what else to do? I guess I just needed to vent and see if anyone has gone through this. If you're stull reading thank you for taking the time. I hope I'm not alone in feeling this way


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